Skatedino

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She found herself consistently obsessed with other people's lives and motives to try an disguise the ugliness she really felt within herself. Pretending to be interested in things and ideas to motivate boys to sleep with her.

She wrote long winded blog posts under the guise of trying to rationalize other people's actions in a whirlwind of self righteousness, only without realizing that the majority of the paragraphs were merely miniature autobiographies. It was obvious that her boyfriends gave her too much attention considering the way she would gravitate, and eventually sleep with, other boys within their own social circles. She had an air of insecurity about her that would shine through in the form of forcing attention onto people who wanted to be left alone. Resorting to violence if her plans didn't come to fruition.

After her own behavior was mildly used against her, she did the worst thing imaginable and only added to her own pool of resnetments. Now trapped in a difficult situation, unwilling to get out, she latches on to worlds outside of her own. So painfully unaware that the respective partners are the ones keeping her unstable existence afloat. Financially and morally.

She always really liked me. Gravitating herself to whatever situation I was in. Shooting glances toward me at shows and shifting her head away when we would make eye contact. Climbing the invisible social ladder all the while leaving a trail of broken harts behind her. She was always like a virus that would work through a close group of friends, poisoning the parties then latching onto something else... Making sure to have an escape plan. I personally never understood her reasoning, but I know it was very well calculated.

We use to live in a small desert town that was so close-knit and relied heavily on a strong music community and mutual respect. Operating as one big group with motivation I'm sure I'll never see again. She kenw she had contributed to the unrest, but I doubt she knew really how much she poisoned our collective pool.

I am nothing but a strong individual who is more than capable of seeing total shit when it's lying in front of me. GET A FUCKING LIFE MAN. STOP TRYING TO INTERVIENE WITH SHIT THAT DOESN'T AND NEVER HAS CONCERNED YOU. WHEN YOU WRITE SHIT LIKE THAT ON THE INTERNET IN COMPLETE PUBLIC VIEW, YOU'RE HURTING PEOPLE'S FEELINGS AND MAKING YOURSELF LOOK LIKE A SELF RIGHTEOUS ASSHOLE.

Quit acting like the scene police and the only one seeing things, "for what they are." Just go away, dude. I didn't think it was possible for you to STILL give me a stomach ache here in San Diego.